I don't understand.
Why am I the only one who just doesn't seem to "get it"?
I have no goals, no future, nothing that makes me feel truly... me.
I'm supposed to go off into the world, go to university and learn things, become an adult finally... but what does that all entail? Where do I go? What do I do?
It's all just... a blank slate
No template
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Alone
Every night alone is horrible. I lay awake, staring at the ceiling, trying to remember that every moment I'm away from you is just one less I have to spend pretending I'm not losing my mind on my own.
Forty-Nine more... some days, I just wish I could close my eyes, and miss all that time in between.
When push comes to shove though, I know this is what I signed on for... and for you, I'm prepared. It just hurts
Forty-Nine more... some days, I just wish I could close my eyes, and miss all that time in between.
When push comes to shove though, I know this is what I signed on for... and for you, I'm prepared. It just hurts
Monday, March 21, 2011
Crazy days
There was a semi-crazed gunman at our school today, and the place was in a RCMP lockdown for two and a half hours. Nobody was hurt, but it was still a little on the scary side of things.
I played pokemon and finally caught the ever-elusive ditto in that time, and now am home.
I'm looking at buying a new pair of skis. They retail at about $700, but I think I know where I can find 'em for about $600. I think it would be a fun and exciting way to get back in shape next winter.
Also- am raising one of these things and need a nickname for him/her (they're genderless)
I played pokemon and finally caught the ever-elusive ditto in that time, and now am home.
I'm looking at buying a new pair of skis. They retail at about $700, but I think I know where I can find 'em for about $600. I think it would be a fun and exciting way to get back in shape next winter.
Also- am raising one of these things and need a nickname for him/her (they're genderless)
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Day 1
For those of you who don't know already, for Lent, I have decided to give up caffeine. I was keeping track of my consumption, and it was... well, a lot higher than I thought it was. My reasoning behind this isn't really religious, so much as it is just a personal query, to see if I have the willpower to do so
Anyways, today was day 1 of my project... Today was a bad day for Ash Wednesday though. My band was playing at a pep rally in front of my entire school, so the better part of my afternoon was spent setting up, moving band members and gear from one location to another trying to get our ducks (and amps) in a row before performance time. The performance went all right, but immediately afterward we were flooded by friends telling us that we sounded great (and of course, the ones who had... other things to say). The problem with this attention was, however that we had to get certain pieces of gear back to their original locations in a very short span of time.
Suffice it to say, it was tiring today
Oh yeah. I wore short shorts too.
Anyways, today was day 1 of my project... Today was a bad day for Ash Wednesday though. My band was playing at a pep rally in front of my entire school, so the better part of my afternoon was spent setting up, moving band members and gear from one location to another trying to get our ducks (and amps) in a row before performance time. The performance went all right, but immediately afterward we were flooded by friends telling us that we sounded great (and of course, the ones who had... other things to say). The problem with this attention was, however that we had to get certain pieces of gear back to their original locations in a very short span of time.
Suffice it to say, it was tiring today
Oh yeah. I wore short shorts too.
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