For Everything Else, there's an Entry-Level Job.

Plane tickets to Mexico in December - $450
New Epiphone Dot - $440
New Driver's License - $22.95
Orange Juice - $1.00*(4*15)
Responsibility - Priceless

True love - ...
...
...
*smooch*

I did

I recorded a song today, but I was not happy with the result and wanted to record it again. I am too tired to make it sound better than the first one.

I wrote a story yesterday. I couldn't come up with an ending that I felt suited it, so I will not share it until I can figure out how.

I read Scott Pilgrim 2, and it makes me want Scott Pilgrim 3. I now have a job, and will shortly afterward have money to acquire the things I want.

I am tired, and need sleep.

Accidentally in Love

I'm not sure how I am right now. Really though, that's how I've been feeling for the past week in it's entirety. I mean, everything is great- I've got great friends, the weather's really nice, everybody's been in a good mood, I can stay up late, write songs, play video games, y'know, all the stuff that summer is about when you're seventeen.

Given the choice, I'd take heartache to heartbreak any time, no matter what. I mean, with heartache, it hurts just as bad... maybe even worse, sometimes, but you know that ll of the suffering is for a cause, and you know exactly what it is, and how it is. Just that it's far away, and you have to keep on playing by the rules of the game until you can finally come out a winner.



She says "What's the problem baby?"
"What's the promlem? Maybe I'm in love..."
"Love?!?"
"Yeah. I think about it whenever I think about it... can't stop thinking about it."
"Well, do you think you could cure this?"
"I wish I could cure it. I can't ignore this if it's love."
"Ah... I see. Dancing under blue skies, singing sticky-sweet love songs, all that, is it?"
"Maybe I should just surrender... it's be like strawberries for the heart, sweet and nourishing."
"You're going to give in? Just like that?"
"..."
"..."
"Maybe... maybe reluctance to give in should be... reconsidered?"
"It's funny. You aren't nearly as resolute as you play."
"Oh, shut up. And the way I see it, it's peaches."

Avenues

There are no two ways about it. I miss you.
I have no poetry, no metaphors, no stories.
I miss you, plain and simple.

August, and Everything After

I don't know exactly where I am right now. I mean, I knew it was coming, and I did what I could to prepare myself, but we all know that when push comes to shove, you can never really brace yourself for the impact of your own heart.

It's summer, but I still feel a chill outside. Maybe it's just because I had begun to get used to your warmth next to me, or maybe it's just my own mental overcast keeping me from feeling rays of optimism in my head. I keep trying to keep my hands busy, and keep my brain doing something else just to keep it off of what's happening right now with me.

It's not that I feel hopeless, but more that I don't know if I'm quite ready to put total hope in myself. For a little while, instead of clinging to prayers, dreams and promises, we didn't have to hang onto anything. For a little while, all of the things that we had to put our faith in were right there, with open arms and a thousand stories to share with glistening eyes. For a little while, we didn't have to lose sleep, fret or even hurt. We got the chance to be safe. To be loved absolutely, held dear to somebody's heart.

We got the chance to dream together.

I promise though, I haven't given up yet, and I'm not going to. 145 days, and it's getting shorter every hour. We can do this. For a long time, it won't be easy, but we can do it.

*I hold it all when I hold you*

The Cold Part

I feel tired but very happy. I went on a super-cool adventure today, and had the time of my life with people I'm very enthusiastic about spending time with. I ate the worst sucker of my life, and failed in an attempt to pet a deer, although I got very close to it. Also, I went to Toy Story 3, and I really enjoyed it. Today was just overall a very nice experience that everyone should be able to have every once in a while.


Then why on Earth do I feel so antsy! GAH! This is so irritating. I feel like something is going to blow up, but I don't know what
grumble grumble


Hopefully this thing will go a way by tomorrow

Smooches

Waiting can be Hell.
That doesn't mean that it isn't worth it though.
Not by a long shot.

Anyone who says dreaming or hope is waste of time needs to get with it.
...Anyways, suffice it to say, I'm fantastically happy right now.
I feel like dancing